because i'm a girl

'Cause I know where I stand.

2012-01-26T18:41:00.003Z

Few random things to blog about (:

1. Am now listening to 'A Little Too Much' by Natasha Bedingfield
2. Hati a bit berbunga-bunga tengok friend request hahaha *geds
3. Totally forgot that I should be getting allowance this month coz I thought last time punya cover bulan 11, 12 and 1. And just now, when making payment to Scottish Power tgk elaun dah masuuuuukkk yaaahoooooo! Betul la, kalau tak tertunggu-tunggu lagi best feeling tu :P
4. Marriage. Lately topik ni memang la sangat hebat dibincangkan di sekelilingku. Semuaorangmacamnakkawinawal @.@
5. Is yet to finish reading Metcalfe by tonight.
6. Can't wait to finish examination.
7. At the same time takut untuk menghadapi Third Year :S
8. Feeling inferior for some reasons.
9. Thinks that Gemersik Kalbu is kinda interesting.

And in every situation, I always think that you should know where you stand.
To constantly compare yourself to other people is such a destructive habit.

T_T

And 'cause I know where I stand, that's why.

permataku

2012-01-15T02:08:00.004Z

Angin kau nyanyikan lagu untuk permataku tenang selalu
Bayu sampaikan berita daku kini ceria aman dan bahagia

RINFINDUFU!!!!!!!! T.T

♫ ♪ ♫ ♪Selimutkan rinduku bersama malammu ♫ ♪♫ ♪

I will do my best for HIM, and for both of you. InsyaAllah.

little did i know that i'd be affected by winter blues

2011-12-30T22:00:00.004Z

'Coz it has come to the point that it became very depressing, so I decided to let it out.

And having them to listen to me, even though they can't do anything about it, is more than enough. 'Coz they seem to know how to comfort me. Seriously.

And now I feel much better.

I never knew it would be this difficult. Sangat menduga. Not blaming anyone though, cuma sedikit kesal dan terkilan.

"Do not fear, for He is here" I'm gonna remember this always.

Allahu Allah, make me stronger day by day, coz all I need is Your love.

(:

cerita hati

2011-11-26T19:38:00.002Z

Pada awan biru ku melakar kata-kata
Pada langit cerah ku panah semua cerita
Dengarlah mentari suara hatiku menyanyi
Berterbangan jiwa merentasi pelangi

Gerimis menitis gugur membasahi bumi
Bagai menangisi sebuah cerita hati
Andai kau fahami semua hikayat pendeta
Seribu tahun kau pasti bisa setia ke alam syurga

friends

2011-11-22T02:45:00.002Z

Random post at 2.47 am. I can't sleep! This is what Siha posted on Gee's wall the other day.

Omaigod diorang jahat gila okay! Tau la aku tak berani bawak kete lagi k fine korangggg, wait for me la aku balik nanti tengok la. Kekeke. Miss them btw.

of fourier series

2011-11-14T23:53:00.003Z

Lulz. Like seriouslyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

Ngantukkkkkkkkkkkssssss!

Flipped

2011-11-14T23:34:00.004Z

I heard about this movie earlier last year. First, a Skype-friend (haha jangan marah I'm calling you this. Well, if you happen to read this..) recommended it to me. Tapi masa tu macam kurang tengok English movies so... yeah..
And then I heard it again from K.Q!l0tt3, saying how cute the movie was but again, at that time I was so into Korean dramas so mcm tak sempat :D

But tonight I don't know what's gotten into me, rasa macam nak tengok and I even downloaded it supaya senang tak payah nak buffer dekat 4shared.

So yea, agree, memang cute! Hehe.

Picture source : Tumblr

Fav quote of all would be,

Chet Duncan: Some of us get dipped in flat, some in satin, some in gloss; but every once in a while, you find someone who's iridescent, and once you do, nothing will ever compare.

Anyways.

Dah lama tak tengok cerita korea. Last sekali City Hunter. Can't seem to find enough time. Macam tipu kan =S

the trip

2011-11-12T00:19:00.008Z

Ada banyak benda berlaku dalam rumah ni these few days yang boleh demotivate semua orang maka haruslah semua orang bersatu kita teguh. Untuk menceriakan hati yang lara, I'm uploading the Manchester (Old Trafford specifically) photos specially dedicated to my little bro muahahaha I know you are reading my blog and sorry for making you jealous. After all, I took these photos just for you. Hehe.

At last dpt juga amik photo berbackground seperti ini. Yang ni la yang paling penting rasanya hahaha.

Konon nak tiru gaya patung tu~

Home Dressing Room. Right, I think amongst all the areas yang kitorang tour, I noticed dekat sini la semua org mcm excited walaupun nampak jersey je hahaha so funny. And of course la jersey pemain pemain yang famous sume orang berebut nk amik gambar. Ok at least aku tahu la jugak pasal Nani ngan Rooney so not bad la kan ;P

Ye, saya baru pergi Old Trafford tahun ni. Simply because I'm not a fan. I don't watch footballs in fact, except kalau team Terengganu or Malaysia yang main, I can become very bersemangat la dunno why. Tapi disebabkan Old Trafford is one of the must-go places la org kata kan so I thought I should go and see what's so interesting about it. Had so much fun though. So I have been to Anfield and Old Trafford. Dah la kot. Bukan minat pun! Hehe.

So basically apart from Old Trafford tour, we ate at AlJazera, of course belum muak coz that's my second time. Sedap laaaaaaaaaa rasa nak bungkus untuk bekalan seminggu je. Hehe. And then we went to Moonlight. Ala tempat tempat ni memang dah familiar sgt kalau org pegi Manchester pun. And I tried faluda. Not my appetite kot. I'd rather have milkshakes je. Lepas tuuuuuuu, Sy@k!r!n (our friend back in KMB) and m@!s@r@h (@z@h's friend) bawak kitorg pegi kedai souvenir and jalan without hala tuju sebab x tahu nak pegi mana dah. Serius kaki rasa macam nak tercabut sampaila Sy@k!r!n cakap, "Nak tau tak, kita sebenarnya dah pusing satu Manchester ni" T_T So sebenarnya kat Manchester takdela apa sangat pun selain OT dan juga tempat makan itu. Sekian terima kaseh!:D

P/S I know I gained weight =S so please don't say anything about it =S Heh.

Off to Nottingham tomorrow for Nottingham Games. We are gonna have fundraising sales so please doakan esok ramai yang beli. Toodles for now. Salam alaik!

Distance

2011-11-09T16:37:00.001Z

This song is so good. Kena dengan my emotions now.

Argggggggghhh sangat buntu tentang satu benda. Help!

coz I'm not sleepy that's why

2011-11-08T00:03:00.004Z

I cannot sleep maybe I am too excited for tomorrow! :D And thus I decided to blog so here I am.

And coming to the difficult part, I just checked my second lab report mark. It was just published I think, coz I have been constantly checking the new grade section since like 6 days ago? Because I saw a friend's status saying that he got the mark already one day after submission so of course I felt mana aci dia dah dapat I wanna know my mark too walaupun sumpah takut sebab second lab macam hancooo je T_T

And so, my instinct, usually is always true. While others are satisfied for improving themselves, I am feeling soooo bad right now. Though I kinda deserve it. Serve me right la kan sapa suruh tak paham betul betul experiment tu, sapa suruh buat diagram separuh by computer separuh lagi guna tangan. People never know what happened though. Susah jugak kalau yang first dapat agak okay, and then bila yang second ni jauh lebih rendah rasa macam terjelepuk jatuh atas tanah pastu susah nak bangun.

Sedih la can't wait to collect the report and bakar sampai jadi abu. Kihkih so extreme.

I am challenging myself. I am gonna have to get much higher for the third one. Can? Insya Allah. As long as I do what I should do kan.

Nevertheless I still am soooooo tak puas hati. Grrrrrrr.

I am gonna enjoy myself tomorrow and lupakan all this. Btw I'm having Reading Week this week. And no, I am not going anywhere except tomorrow hihihi :D

Salam aidiladha from me. Belated aidiladha (;

wordless wednesday

2011-11-02T00:42:00.001Z

The Last Song, 2010

**picture credits to Tumblr (:

2011-11-01T00:59:00.003Z

Dah November!!! :O

Next week is Reading Week. I've always wanted to go to Ireland I don't know why. Many people say that it's pretty much the same with UK tapi tak kira I WANTS TO GOES!!! :D
And so I've had this plan to go there, even dah contact Azi pun. But I guess I might have to cancel it. Coz there's so much to read, so many lecture notes left unread, tutorials left untouched, so how am I supposed to go enjoy myself? *sad* And Audrey seemed to have menyedarkan me the other day by saying 'It's Reading Week, not Holiday Week, so we're supposed to sit in our room and READ!!!' with her semangat face. Haha.

Ok. So plan nak pergi Ireland kena postpone ke lain masa. Oh pls pls pls I wanna goooooooooooooooooooo!

I have a lab report to be submitted tomorrow. No drama like last week, I reckon. ;D

this i promise you

2011-10-24T22:27:00.007+01:00

My body aches all over, what's wrong with me?! Mentang-mentangla beramazing race dekat B00M Camp semalam. I feel like an old woman. Sakit otot sakit kaki, tak boleh jalan laju-laju.

Anyways. I shall be grateful for today's good news. It is good enough I think, after the drama and all. Hamdan lillah.

Tell you what, B00M Camp was indeed an amazing experience. Took part in archery and cave maze for the first time and it was really 'Fun In The @!r' wohoho. I seemed to enjoy it more than the freshers. Lol. Ala tak kisah pun, I am young what. Hehe. Apa-apa pun the camp somehow managed untuk mereleasekan my stress. Sorry for my celaru language. My English vocab macam dah berkarat je :( Should practise more and more!

One thing I discovered last weekend is that I couldn't stand stuffy places, and also I couldn't sleep if it's too dark coz it scares me. Little did I know I have a claustrophobia too :S :S :S Banyak hal lah pulak tiba tiba kan.

I'll be carrying out my second experiment tomorrow which is Gas Absorption Column and reading the instruction je pun dah boleh buat me rasa nak pitam. Wish me luck! And I hope that last week punya scene tak berulang lagi. Promise. Promise.

Regarding the title, I don't know why I've been listening to this song every night before I sleep lately. It's an old song, I know. Released when I was in Standard 6. Omg that's looooong time ago.

But it never fails me. The first verse especially.

When the visions around you,
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you,
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength,
I'll give you hope,
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call,
Was standing here all along..

May you people have a blessed week!
:)

Finding the Good in Goodbye..

2011-10-21T12:30:00.002+01:00

Right, today is the day. In another 1 hour or so, I'm gonna send Kak Timah to the train station. And she'll be back for good. There's so much in my head right now that I don't even know how to begin. Just so you know, Kak Timah is the oldest between us yang tinggal and what I meant is that she's like our big sister walaupun kadang-kadang perangai tak berapa nk kakak -_- If you know what I mean. Haha.

Cause all of us were so busy these past few weeks, so her departure is quite short-noticed, though she had told us earlier that she had requested 21st October from MARA. Tapi mcm, sebab tak confirm lagi, everyone mcm took it for granted. No, bukan mcm tu, tp macam... Tak sedar. Tiba-tiba hari Isnin baru ni kalau tak silap after we had our dinner dia sebut psl she might be going back on Friday. And everyone was like :O :O :O
Seriously, am not kidding. And I thought since MARA tak cakap apa-apa dekat dia until Rabu, so the date might be postponed la. Tapi rupa-rupanya tak. T_T

And so the rest of us, 5 of us planned something for her. Not gonna say it as a farewell party coz it sounds very sad, but yea, some kind of celebration for her. In a way, last moment to spend together with her in this house. So we held the event last night and I must say it's such a wonderful event. Alhamdulillah. Kitorang ada undi hari tu whether nak makan luar ke dalam rumah je. Me voted for makan luar of course :D Tapi 2 orang je nak makan luar and so we decided to just hold the event at home and delegated the cooking tasks.

I wanna post the pictures but maybe not now. Not rajin to upload dalam keadaan sedih-sedih sekarang. Like Miera the junior said, it was a parti syok sendiri. Lol, couldnt agree more. Tapi syukur sebab sempat jugak gather semua org despite of hal masing-masing yang tak pernah habis. Terima kasih housemates sebab make time jugak kali ni. And thanks for the songs and videos, girls. Rasa nak nangisssss. I miss my family in Terengganu tapi having them housemates somehow make me stronger here.

Hmm. I'm skipping the Maths tutorial today. Tapi kelas pergi kot. Not sure. Tak tahu la macam mana nanti. Tak mau nangis tak mau nangis! Cannot! Mcm mana nk pergi kelas nanti kalau nangis-nangis. Ya Allah, pls, make me strong. I don't wanna cry.

I'm gonna try finding the good in goodbye..

pengajaran

2011-10-11T16:25:00.004+01:00

Fuh. Lega gila! Taktau nak cakap apa dah.

Hari ni memang drama habislaaaa! Itulaaa, buat keje last minute lagi kan.. Tapi..

Sume sebab barcode coversheet tu laa, dah tukar link lain pulak dh.. ((nak back up diri sendiri))

Lesson learnt today.

Jangan cakap je Nadirah.

Semua org pun sama teruk tadi. Berlari mcm org gila! Malu je kalau orang putih tgk. Haha.

Taknak buat dah. Kawan-kawan, ni last time eh. :)

YOSH! Third week already! FIGHTING!!!!

New

2011-09-26T09:13:00.002+01:00

Today's gonna be the first day of new semester. First day of being a second year student. Somehow it freaks me out but I will have to make it through. I will make it through. Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Sheffield hasn't changed much I think. Moved in the new room 2 days ago and still adjusting myself to it. Of course it feels different. Betul la Kak Eica cakap dulu bilik ni panas sikit kadang-kadang. Now I know. Kinda miss my old room. Biasalah, you win some, you lose some.

Anyway.

Masih sedang menyesuaikan diri dengan keadaan baru dalam rumah ni. Missing those lovely seniors a lot. Being a senior in this house; I am so not prepared and sometimes so clueless in certain things. I'm really not used to this kind of things. Really.

Let's see how I am gonna survive for another 9 months.

sing to me a lullaby

2011-08-26T18:00:00.002+01:00

tinggal 26 hari lagi.
624 jam. 37 440 minit. 2246400 saat.
tipu la kalau kata tak sedih.
memang sedih pun!

:'(

555th

2011-08-20T11:03:00.005+01:00

After almost 5 months!

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I'm really screaming right now, may seem a bit crazy or anything, but I'm a VERY HAPPY GOGUMA today!

Thanks for making this come true!

T_____________T

choices

2011-08-16T02:54:00.006+01:00

Woke up today in the morning with few dilemmas, erm, being me, who is always caught in dilemmas, I find it very intimidating sometimes. So let's go one by one.

1)To wake up or continue sleeping. Thank God I managed to fight with my own desire, but I doubt for how long it would last.

2)Suddenly I am thinking of changing my Facebook name to my real name. No particular reasons, just that I think it would be more formal. Ha! Since when do Formal Facebook and Non-formal Facebook exist! I don't know. But I actually wonder how many people in my FB friends list REALLY know my real name. It doesn't matter anyway. Just saying. Plus, I am suddenly reminded of a friend's comment long time ago.

bile nk tukor name profile ngan name sbnr? baru matang skek,19 orh.. :p

That was exactly his post on my wall in FB. Thank God there is 'See Friendship' button :D It is indeed very useful at times. Okay maybe he was joking but it did affect me and so I was thinking, whyyyyyyyyyyy? Tak matang ke nama tuuuu? o_O And since when a name can be matang or not. -__-

Looking back, I have been using THAT particular name ever since zaman Friendster. It is basically a simple combination of my nickname at home and between friends. I never thought of changing it pun. Except now I am in a dilemma. :P

3)To go or not to go to Bazar Ramadhan today. Suka je pegi tapi tak suka kalau ramai sangat orang. Sesaaaak. But If I go I'm afraid that I could not control myself. Konon cakap beli 2 jenis je, end up beli 4-5 jenis. Teruk betul!

4)Wedges or pumps as raya present untuk diri-sendiri

5)Nanti balik UK nak pindah bilik ke tak?

6)Nak beli ke tak kamera baru? Macam tak perlu kan? But a friend said, "Dah kalau suka and macam ada duit beli la, lama pun boleh guna. Kan takde expiry date" And I started to ponder hahaha.

Dan dan banyak lagi seperti, nak kemas rumah sekarang ke petang sikit? Kuikui teruk betul perangai eh!

We realize our dilemma goes deeper than shortage of time; it is basically a problem of priorities. We confess, We have left undone those things that ought to have done; and we have done those things which we ought not to have done.

Charles E. Hummel

Oh, semalam, setelah sekian lama tak bukak satu website ni. Let's say hi to ASOS! Banyak betul barang cantik dan murah sekarang ye! Tolong tolong! Instead of blocking the Megaupload website, lagi baik block website ni sekarang jugak! T_T

Should I say feeling-less?

2011-08-14T19:18:00.005+01:00

I start imagining so many things these few days. Well, I do that often but this time it's different. And it's new. Ni sume sebab stalk sorang ni punya FB la ni. Ha! Takut la tu. Naaah not yours :P And please don't be scared of me. I AM NOT a stalker. This is a confession. Hahaha.

Also, I sleep a lot these days, and hence I dreamed a lot too. What I dislike about dreams is that they give you false hopes. Temporary happiness. And worse, pain. The pain should also be temporary but sometimes it seems that the pain decided to stay. Till the end of the day. Or perhaps for few days. You see, it is frustrating when you couldn't finish your dreams coz you happened to be waking up at the wrong time. There goes your dreams. Gone in split seconds. Just like that. I know it happens to all of us. Be it wonderful, bizarre or even scary (the dream I mean), I usually ended up wondering whether it ends happily or with tears. Okay, maybe I am over analysing those unimportant matters but, yea, I just can't help it.

I have few blogs that I always check out whenever I surf the internet. Coz I find them soooo inspiring. Some people can really motivate me with their thoughts and words. If only I could thank them one day for somehow affecting me, in a good way of course.

On the other note, I have been at home for TWO MONTHS already. Seriously I am so feeling-less.

(1)I don't think my cooking skills improve since I rarely cook at home.
(2)So far baru bawak kereta 3 kali. Tu pun ada orang kat sebelah. And kalau sekarang, orang bagi kereta suruh bawak sorang-sorang I don't think I have the guts.
(3)Tak pasti la banyak berbakti ke banyak menyusahkan ibu bapa T_T

What happened to the 'To-do Lists in Malaysia' prepared one week before going back?
Well I lost it.

That's me. SO CUAI! Don't be cuai like me. You won't like it!

Qaisara

2011-08-11T23:41:00.006+01:00

Pagi 12 ramadhan..Ramadhan Kareem everyone..Wanna share a pic today!!!

This picture of Qaisara, my niece was taken secretly by me few weeks ago when she had to stay with me at her grandma's house (my mom la tu). Hahahahaha I don't know why but at first glance, I found it funny because she looked like she was being imprisoned and she had nowhere to go. On second thought, she looked sad, though her face cannot be seen, but the picture seems to tell that this lil girl was staring out of the window, waiting for his father to come back- something like that.

I showed this to my mom and she said 'Dok baik buat gitu ke die' and I went like, 'Bakpe? Orang dok wat mende mende pun, amik gambo je laaa' Kan kan?

And yes, she's only one years old yet she's very attracted to smartphones already. That explains why I had to snap her pics secretly, MOST of the time. Well I would not want my phone to be her saliva's next victim after Kaklong's Sony Ericsson -___- Kids these days. Haih.

Anyways. I miss her! Tak jumpa hampir seminggu!

Picture taken during her good mood. The fact that she held the phone terbalik made her CUTER!

I hope to see her today :)

Miles away, miles away. Yes I'm happy for you, I'm happy for you.

2011-08-07T23:37:00.005+01:00

The same place, the same occasion and the same gaze like last year.

I am so happy for you my dear friend. Finally after all you have been through. Will always pray for the best.

But... Yes, there's a but.

And now I'm staring into space....

oh prosecutor.

2011-07-30T18:33:00.002+01:00

nangisssss :(

hate that he has to die. script writer, how could you? at least give him chance to remarry sae hee and be happy. or see his father (only if he will wake up again). oh no this is so heartbreaking.

come to think of it, he's one of the reasons why i stay with this show. i like him in the beginning and yes, i admit that i kinda hate him as the drama progressed since he always came in between just to make things more complicated for the city hunter. but i understand now that he was just doing his job. as a prosecutor. to abide by the law.

then i started to like him again.

for the second time, HOW COULD YOU, SCRIPT WRITER. :(

old times

2011-07-29T18:02:00.005+01:00

I always think that this song is pretty.(Westlife's version I mean. Sorry Extreme) Can a song be pretty though? Well if yes, this song is pretty! And sometimes old songs bring back a lot of memories which are irreplaceable.

"It's not that I want you not to say but if you only knew how easy it would be to show me how you feel..."

Ooooooooo it would be nice if someone could play a guitar while singing it for me :P

Highly Recommended

2011-07-14T16:31:00.004+01:00

HAHAHA. What a straightforward woman. But, they're cute.

5 more episodes to go and I'm enjoying the whole plot and all the characters. Please please please don't die. I could not bear a sad ending for this one. Although there is quite a big possibility that the City Hunter dies in the end. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I should just wait then.

embracing my journey #1

2011-07-11T19:34:00.015+01:00

It's called Pick and Tell and Reminisce :)

September

Hello Sheffield! Let's know more about each other and be good to me. Okay?

October

The Openhouse. It's nice meeting lots of people for the first time.

November

It's time to go out from Sheffield (though Nottingham is pretty much only one hour away by bus)and meet KMB peeps!

December

Met Mr Snow for the first time ever. Walaupun technically, snow pertama turun pada 27 Nov tp gambar kat bawah ni amik masa Snow Day Out 1st Dec. Masa kelas cancel and satu uni cuti sebab salji tebal sangat ;D

January

Surprisingly, no picture but this one! Because it was examination month so I didn't even bother taking pictures sangat pun. (Eh?) But yes maybe this was taken when I was feeling homesick-ish, which is not really me. (Eh? again)

February

Heh. Took part in a nasyid competition. Dapat jejakkan kaki ke University of Leeds.

March

Kinda a sweet escape to Bath, in the middle of hectic schedules. Stonehenge here I come!

April

Erm, Dinner Dash.

May

Food party with fellow coursemates (Well, my study group partners to be specific)

June

Birmingham, Liverpool and London. The picture below was taken somewhere near the Bullring, Birmingham.

I ended up smiling.
Alhamdulillah thank you Allah, for choosing me.

wish i never was

2011-07-10T13:40:00.006+01:00

(1)siapa je yang suka bila dibanding-bandingkan dengan orang lain. habaq mai sini.
(2)terasa setiap benda dalam hidup ni suatu persaingan.
(3)penat lah kalau semua benda nak bersaing. kalau menang, okay, suka, tapi takat tu je la. kalau kalah?
(4)rasanya bukan benda tu yang aku kejar. dan aku cuma nak nikmati hidup.
(5)i wish i would never care about benda-benda remeh yang memang takdak benefit pun kalau duk pk. and memang tak akan pernah habis pun. but i guess that's my weakness.

*sigh* ye elok sangat la tu mengeluh. T_T

and this is very random but i REALLY wish i could have my lost nokia back. untuk sekejap pun tak apa. just to transfer all the contact numbers there. because i feel so bad for not being able to contact orang-orang yang aku tiba-tiba rindu just untuk tanya khabar because i lost their numbers. rasa sedih =( agaknya diorang pun ingat aku dah lupa kat diorang. seriously. so. hopeless.

IF ONLY i was not THAT clumsy before this. wish i never was.

:(

penantian atau perhentian?

2011-07-06T17:43:00.004+01:00

after more than one year, i wonder how does everybody look like now (in person to be precise). this is so gonna be wonderful. and i'm pretty sure there will be a lot of catching-ups.

hoping that this dream will come true. smoothly. happily.

I MISS YOU GIRLS.

2011-07-04T07:58:00.004+01:00

untuk diri-sendiri dan awak yang di luar sana ;)

Lirik Lagu D’Masiv Jangan Menyerah Lyrics

tak ada manusia
yang terlahir sempurna
jangan kau sesali
segala yang telah terjadi

kita pasti pernah
dapatkan cobaan yang berat
seakan hidup ini
tak ada artinya lagi

syukuri apa yang ada
hidup adalah anugerah
tetap jalani hidup ini
melakukan yang terbaik

tak ada manusia
yang terlahir sempurna
jangan kau sesali
segala yang telah terjadi

Tuhan pasti kan menunjukkan
kebesaran dan kuasanya
bagi hambanya yang sabar
dan tak kenal putus asa

zzzzzzzzzz. penat la layan sinetron. balik balik benda sama je yang jd masalah. x pernah habis. episod panjang berbulan-bulan. tapi apa nak buat kalau 2 3 channel sume main sinetron waktu sama. dah la hero sama. oiii takdak pelakon lain ke. asyik asyik christian sugiono.

kalau randy pangalila takpe gak nak berlakon 10 cite pun. eheh.

2011-07-03T16:38:00.002+01:00

2 minggu 4 hari

^^,

(re)driving lessons

2011-06-29T05:20:00.004+01:00

i would prefer getting scolded by cg f@iz@l dekat pusat memandu BITARA dulu tu than enc!k m0hd z@k@r!@ who turns out to be- my daddy! yes yes yes.

:(

kena marah dengan cikgu x rasa down pun. boleh pulak buat-buat gelak sebab nak cver silap kan, tapi.. dengan ayahanda sendiri. ok sambung sendiri. (it rhymes accidentally)

anyways. cg f@!z@l!! jom la ajar saya lg. walaupun cikgu selalu kutuk-kutuk saya. haha.

dulu rasa semangat nak bawak kete balik. tp skang mcm... MALASSSSSS boleh tak. takut laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

mungkin nak kena baca artikel-artikel yang macam ini bermula dari sekarang.

2011-06-27T18:15:00.008+01:00

cuti cuti pun jadi ulat buku jugak (wekkk!)

haha. tak sabar nak baca dua novel ni! cepat la sampai!

okay dah lama tak baca novel ~~cinta~~ melayu. rasanya sejak buat IB kat KMB dulu kot. wah dah dua tahun lebih gak tu. ye la, macam tak sempat je nak baca kan dulu. penat asyik buat ulangkaji. blergh. tipu gila n@dir@h. hahaha.

anyways.

since sekarang banyak gila drama kat tv yang adaptasi drpd novel, hari tu berborak la dengan beberapa housemates tersayang kat dapur pasal novel-novel alaf 21 yang famous yang memang biasanya org minat novel baca. terus rasa cam, balik malaysia ni nak cari balik semua novel tu.

aku ni memang la kaki novel. tapi aku tak beli pun. rasanya dari dulu baca banyak novel pun pinjam orang punya. tapi tak ingat dah pinjam dari sapa sebenarnya. i mean, adalah ingat few people. tapi rasanya ada jugak dulu n@n@ selalu pinjam daripada kawan dia and aku tumpang baca jugak. tapi paling ingat waktu form 3 ke form 4 tah aku selalu seludup novel ni daripada kinah (oh kinah i miss u! i know u dont read such novels dah sekarang but i hope u dont forget yang novel novel ni jugak lah antara sebab kita dapat bond dengan kuatnya dulu hehe). nama pun seludup, maksudnya senyap senyap la kan. siap balut dengan surat khabar lagi yela takut kena rampas. hehe.

"rahsia di hati tak siapa yang tahu" tak tahu kenapa ingat sangat tagline novel Kau Untukku by aisya sofea ni. mungkin sebab kisah ahmad fuad dan nurul umairah sangatlah menarik and since then aku suka sangat novel-novel aisya sofea. Adam dan Hawa would be my second favourite from her. oh dan aku tahu aku dah sangat ketinggalan sebab dah 3 buku baru dia aku belum baca tapi tak apalahhhh.

dan beberapa tajuk novel yang memang sangat meninggalkan kesan and aku masih boleh ingat nama-nama watak ~~lelaki~~utama of course lah Bicara Hati, Manisnya Cinta (awwwhh HUNNY EXICA! this novel always reminds me of you laa), Ombak Rindu, Pergilah Sepi, Sepi Tanpa Cinta, Cinta Pertama, Air Mata Kasih and the list goes on and on and on!

superb laa! banyaknya la masa aku terluang dulu sempat baca novel ni sume eh. hehe. and lepas baca novel-novel Alaf 21 ni sume baru la aku kenal novel-novel Hlovate plak. such a great writer. seriously. and jatuh hati pulak ngan novel-novel dia yg bagi aku ada isi and banyak mengajar jugak. well, that's how it's supposed to be kan. tak nak lah baca kosongggg je. tak belajar apa-apa. tak nak lah sekadar ingat betapa coolnya Nazmi, betapa romantiknya Tengku Syahran atau betapa style nya Carl Zafran kan. Taknak macam tu je T_T

dan baru ni balik je aku baca balik Ked's Story yang ada dalam 3 Ceritera Pelangi yang aku beli 2 tahun lepas. masih comel! >_< lepas tu nak cuba baca balik Cinta Pertama tapi macam... entah. aku rasa macam malas nak habiskan padahal baru baca bab satu yang dekat tempat main kuda tu. sapa baca cite ni mesti tau. so aku pelik jugak la padahal dulu beria sangat ulang cite ni sebab Carl Zafran. nyata minat aku memang bermusim agaknya. huhu. so aku end up reading Tentang....Dhiya yang aku pun terkejut masa mula-mula nampak buku ni atas almari. kakfa punya!!!!! dah setahun gak la kot aku pinjam. ampun kakfa ampun T_T serius aku lupa yang aku belum bagi. dulu masa lepas habis IB dia kasi pinjam sebab aku cakap aku bosan kat rumah. dia kata dia pn belum habis baca sebab busy. tapi dulu lepas dia bagi pinjam tu aku tak rasa nak baca pun. so baru ni memang first time la aku baca, dan aku sangat suka! cerita ni, lain daripada yang Cinta Pertama tadi tu. sebab background cerita ni pasal student. and aku rasa sangat dekat dengan diri aku. setting dia UTM Skudai. since n@n@ belajar situ dulu and aku pernah la 2 3 kali pegi so aku dapat la jugak gambaran tempat tu mcm mana.

so sekarang minat aku dah berubah rasanya. nak baca cerita pasal student uni la pulak. baru boleh relate sikit kan :p bahasa dia pun santai and sempoi. aku suka. ya aku suka! sebab tu aku tak sabar nak baca dua novel kat atas tu ha. pun dari pengarang Syud ni.

masa aku sms kakfa aritu.

"comel la pulak tentang dhiya ni. azril mustaufi! kidal!"

dia balas.

"weh..kak fa tak ingat dah jalan cerita. lama dh x nampak novel tu lagipun"

ahah perliiiiiiiiiiiiiii! kuikui.

ok dah panjang gila ni. tapi aku cam rasa excited gila sekarang!! weeee

2011-06-27T17:41:00.002+01:00

"eh ira, mu ni op, macam budok-budok..."

"x beruboh lagi mu.."

akhirnya. FUN reunites again.

i couldn't help but smiling to think that how years have passed and how things have changed physically yet the feelings being with those people i love still stay the same. warm as always.

sayang semua :)

2011-06-23T17:51:00.003+01:00

Ked kata,

"Jangan korang ingat seksi tu lawa.Jangan korang ingat kalau bagi perempuan seksi yang boleh pegang tarik bawak ke hulu ke hilir,aku tak tolak.Aku tak suka."

"Korang punya mindset aku respect,so please treat mindset aku dengan cara yang sama. Relationship bagi aku ada satu ending je.Marriage.Aku tak nak bawak awek lawa seksi ke hulu ke hilir buat teman sosial macam dah kawin,lepas tu nak kawin nanti cari lain pulak.Aku nak wife aku nanti yang tak pernah disentuh dipandang lelaki selain dari apa yang patut.Dan aku tak rasa patut untuk aku buat macam tu pada mana-mana perempuan yang bakal jadi isteri orang jugak satu hari nanti."

"I really want to be there by your side come hell or high water"

sumber : hlovate

there is this one thing that keeps lingering in my mind lately. when will i find the answer?

dan bila esok

2011-06-21T11:14:00.012+01:00

waktu tidur dah tunggang langgang kebelakangan ni. nak kata jetlag, takde lah sangat. tapi adalah sikit sikit. tapi pagi tadi, bangun awal sikit la dr biasa. dah duduk malaysia kena la ikut waktu malaysia kan, so masa bonda dan kimi siap siap nak gi sekolah and kak ngah pulak nak naik flight balik kl ((ok nampaknya bermulalah episod sunyi diriku. nak buat apa lah kat rumah lepas ni T_T )) aku pun bangun sekali. and sarapan mcm org normal hari ni. terasa diriku begitu berharga :D :D tried to keep myself awake. tengok malaysia hari ini. perghhhhh. hehe. bukan senang nak tengok mhi tu. lepas tu abah balik. masa tu pukul 11.30 dah. and mata tiba-tiba rasa ngantuk. masuk bilik ingat nak tido lah kejap sebelum zohor kan. tengok tengok pukul 4 baru bangun T_T

jadi tak tahu lah mcm mana ni. waktu tidur haru biru sekali.

rasa hari tu mcm banyak to-do lists bila sampai kat malaysia. tapi bila kat sini je mcm blank dah tak tahu nk start dengan apa dulu. tp tak apa la kan. pk pk balik, tak sampai seminggu pun lagi sampai sini.

nasib baik la n@n@ sekarang dah jadi lecturer kat uitm dungun so hr khamis memang die akan balik sini. ada la jugak teman nanti nk ajak pergi jalan ke kan.

tak tahu la nak cakap apa lagi. hahahaha. meh la letak gambar siket.

for still recognizing me, and for being able to call out my name, thank u very much bambam!

the siblings

daddy-hey

wajah kesayangan hamba

mommy-hey with qaisara

with abang long

bersama bukan-besday-girl

besday girl with her mommy

:)

those pics were taken recently during qaisara's first birthday! happy birthday love, grow up well okay. it was an amazing night. thanks everyone!

2011-06-20T18:07:00.003+01:00

malaysia is great, as usual!

Source : here

please! cepatlah rabu! cite ni makin interesting dah! ;D

2011-06-13T01:15:00.001+01:00

rindu boleh tak? >.<

T_T

home is where your heart is

2011-06-11T04:42:00.003+01:00

i just can't believe that i'll be back in few more days. to HOME. the place where i belong.

honestly if people ask me "are you homesick?" i would say "no, not really"
but suddenly, now. at the moment.i really miss u, ma. and abah.

i'll see u guys soon. real soon. ♥ ♥ ♥

2011-06-09T08:20:00.001+01:00

yesterday was very tiring!!! like seriously! but i had so much fun in liverpool. think its a nice place. now heading to birmingham. and to a friend, i know you're disappointed, i'm sorry. just. really. really. sorry. yes i know, saying sorry won't solve anything. but that's just the thing that i could think of. hmm. it won't happen again next time. i promise to try. yes. promise to REALLY TRY. argh what the crap am i writing. u might not even read this. or even if u do, u might not know that i'm dedicating this to you. okaaaaaaaay just stop it now nadirah -_-

and just now as soon as the train departed, i started listening to my mp3 player. then suddenly it started raining and guess what, beast's 'on rainy days' began playing. aha. this song never fails me up till now. try listening to it too!! till then. will blog later

2011-06-07T00:42:00.003+01:00

something is wrong with my facebook. it took me ages to retrieve the messages. i kept missing the notifications. pffft. this is no fun NO NO NO!

hunny exica, is my facebook gonna be like yours? @_@

macam langit dengan bumi

2011-06-06T01:18:00.004+01:00

ahah. the title explains everything. tapi takpe. i believe that it's what's underneath that counts. yang penting rasa dan tekstur kan?

was browsing through cute photos as usual. and suddenly found this.

ain't this one of the sweetest things *cough* that someone could give to u? *cough*
and what about this one...

*faint*

ohmygod since when i'm becoming such a hopeless romantic. too many love fictions perhaps?

pengalaman #1

2011-06-05T20:48:00.003+01:00

sometimes you need to walk alone just to show that you can.

biasanya kalau travel sorang sorang tu la tetiba macam macam hal yang jadi. contoh, train delayed. well, being me, mula la nak rasa panik and gelabah, dua tiga kali pergi tanya kat kaunter betul ke, sat gi nak naik yg mana, pukul berapa sampai.

pastu contoh lain, tetiba la pulak phone takde bateri ataupun takde kredit. tapi tu salah sendiri la kan sebab tak well prepared with any kind of consequences.

tapi betul la. bila travel sorang sorang, sepatutnya there are many lessons to be learned. dan sayang sekali kalau pengalaman tu dibiarkan ditiup angin mcm tu je tanpa sebarang refleksi.

Haru biru

2011-06-04T18:37:00.001+01:00

Serabut :(

.....

2011-06-04T01:21:00.005+01:00

okay selain daripada terkena juga jangkitan demam Nora Elena dr malaysia tu, ada satu lg drama yg buat aku tertunggu-tunggu selalu. ni maryam punya psl la ni introduce kat aku. haha. blame org lain pula kan. yaaaaaaaaaa drama korea! tapi kali ni lain sikit drama ni. tak typical macam biasa sangat. takde pun yg heroine terpaksa berlakon jd laki pastu jatuh cinta dengan hero. pastu pulak dikelilingi hero-hero sampingan yang handsome cute semuanya. YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL!

walaupun sangat lame dan boleh agak dah jalan cerita, aku tetap suka gila cite ni!

tapi kali ni CITY HUNTER ni memang lain la plot cerita. sebab adaptasi dr manga. basically about a young man who wants to avenge on his father's death. best sikit tgk cite cite mcm ni kan, setiap episode pun ade suspense. and style gilaaaaaaaaaa cara nk tangkap org jahat sume tu. dah lama tak tgk cite cite style mcm ni. dulu pun tgk Bloody Monday suka gila!

cakap psl city hunter plak kisah cinta cinta tu mesti la ada jugak kan, nama pun cite korea, tp takpe sebab park min young comel sangat and yg paling penting tak gedik!!! and lg best jugak cite ni sebab ade lee min HOT. hah! over la tu. hehe lee min ho! ya, dengan rambut yg jaaaaauuuuh lebih amazing berbanding zaman BOF dulu! hihi.

debaran setiap rabu dan khamis bermula. jom berdebar bersama sama. hehe.

bunga? orkid lah!

2011-06-02T03:44:00.012+01:00

sape penah come across benda kat atas ni? students KMB batch 08/10 haruslah igt sgt benda kat atas ni kan sebab tajuk kat atas ni is one of the topics utk esei theory of knowledge dulu. tak tak, bukan nak mengenangkan saat saat tulis esei TOK tu ke apa, tp tiba tiba terjumpa dengan gambar ni masa online.

teringat pulak. recently when i updated my status at skype 'ringan', which refers to how relieved i felt upon finishing the exams, betapa ringan rasa kepala ni ha, then a friend asked, "wowwwwwwww dah kurus ke?" or something like that la. and i was like, "ha? what?" lepas tu dia cakap, "tuuu. ringan tu."

ha tu satu. lepas tu ada sorang lagi pulak tanya, "didi apa yang ringan didi, bag nk bawak balik malaysia ke. ke berat badan?"

**adoi tp kenapa dua dua cakap pasal berat badan -__-

see? see? how different people have different perceptions towards one word tu je. sebab tu kadang kadang aku suka update status skype or ym pendek pendek je pastu nanti mesti ada org tanya pasal tu ke, pasal ni ke, and dapat tgk banyak sangat cara org berfikir hahahaha mcm takde cara lain kan aku ni.

hari ni rasa seronok sekali! eh bukan sekali je tapi berkali kali. another wishlist granted :) syukur alhamdulillah.

disebabkan sangat gembira maka hari ni aku @z@h dan @udr3y jalan jalan kat botanical garden yang cantik sangat tu. yg org kata kalau spring mmg byk la bunga lawa lawa kan. tapi sayangnya T_T bunga dah tak berapa ada dah T_T tak thrilled sangat pun tadi T_T

walau bagaimanapun kenangan tadi harus dirakamkan melalui gambar. i felt that we could keep our memories safe like a painting. *coughcough* ayat sape tu... T_T ignore me! tak betul sekali sekala. heheh.

anyways. yea. some pictures.

eh jap. mana bunga? "WHERE ARE YOU BUNGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA?"

lalu bunga pun muncul secara berganda!

nah tu dia. BUNGA! teringatlah iklan ako mustapha dulu tu.

"bunga? orkid lah!" comel la ako! eh bukan, budak tu. hikhik.

terfikir. semua perempuan suka bunga ke? kalau mcm aku takde la suka. takde la juga benci. hmmm...

ringan

2011-05-29T01:24:00.002+01:00

a very short day. i just dont know what to do with approximately 18 days left.

tapi hari ni agak bermakna. menang bid sesuatu yg 'besar' di ebay! yeaaaaaaaay! hehe. and thanks to cik fatin yg setia menemani diriku secara virtual pd hari ni sambil tgk cite 'Aku Tak Bodoh' sama-sama. banyak sangat org ckp psl cite tu so aku tgk jgk hr ni dan memanglah, cite tu banyak mesej. sape sape yang belum tgk boleh la tgk :D

last night i had a food party with some of my coursemates. it was fun! had beriani, chicken chop, pasta and also kebab. will update the photos later.

ok. city hunter time ^^, hihihi

officially

2011-05-26T13:05:00.004+01:00

alhamdulillah. officially done with my first year. insya allah. result tu nanti nanti la kan tapi yang penting DAH HABIS PAPER DAH! DAH TAK PAYAH PERGI IC AND BALIK PUKUL 3 PAGI.

hihi sukaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. tak tergambar dengan kata-kata. nak shout out kat fb tp takut mengganggu perasaan org2 sekeliling pulak yg masih sedang struggle. haha. lately i always think banyak banyak kali sebelum post kat fb. dah tak macam dulu dah :(

alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah. seriously 9 bulan memang sekejap sangat rasanya. rasa mcm baru semalam fly. eceh ceh. sokmo gitu! tapi betul la. hehe.

it has been 9 months. orang kata kalau ibu mengandung tu dah melahirkan pun. got me thinking, sepanjang 9 bulan ni apa perubahan dalam diri yg dah berlaku. dari semua segi. sungguh menarik utk difikirkan.

looking forward to another 36 months HERE!!!!

of beriani, fluid mechanics and thermodynamics

2011-05-22T12:56:00.004+01:00

tajuk nak ilmiah je kan :p hehehe sebab semalam baru makan beriani yg kwn pakistan bwkkan. and masa tu sedang study fluid mechanics and thermo. hihihi.

so many things have happened within this one week. Information Commons has been my second home these days. haha funny to think about it because i still remember how i am not fond of coming to this place. i mean like, i always thought, whyyyyy do i have to go there. i can study in my room what. plus, my room is more comfortable. i can always go to the kitchen whenever i want to, i can listen to the music loudly, i can change my position of studying and blablabla. but, now i admit that I REALLY CAN'T STUDY IN MY ROOM! there are so many distractions i think. more cons than pros. soooo that's why i resort to going to the IC.

okay first paper is tomorrow. next paper is the day after tomorrow. and the last paper is on 26th. =( not much gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap! =(

all the best everyone. semoga Allah permudahkan.. ameen

lets listen to this song. lagu lama ni. a friend posted on facebook the other day. rasa berkobar-kobar gitu!

oh yes. my current desktop background:

nadirah boleh! dan semua org boleh!

2011-05-15T15:45:00.001+01:00

bestnya kalau dapat ni =)

p/s happy birthday Burning Soul <3

inspired

2011-05-05T12:32:00.001+01:00

jangan biarkan emosi mengatasi akal.
bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

SENYUM!!! :)

....

2011-05-03T23:12:00.004+01:00

lama dah tak rasa macam ni. lama sangat dah. malam ni rasa lagi.

pasrah.

it's okay even if it hurts. i'm gonna try again to smile again. it's gonna be difficult for the time being. and all i need is time. it will soon heal.

i actually have expected this. for things to turn out differently. even i have already prepared how to react. but sometimes it's never easy to put things into action. dan aku manusia biasa.

ada perkara yg lebih penting daripada ini. aku tahu pasti ada hikmah.

kawan yg membawa perkhabaran. saya okay jangan risaaaaau :)

...

2011-05-03T01:53:00.001+01:00

tell u what, 26th will probably be one of the happiest days in my life. im really looking forward to it.

..

2011-05-01T23:26:00.001+01:00

semoga perasaan yang bukan-bukan itu pergi. sebelum menjerat diri sendiri.

.

2011-05-01T21:04:00.006+01:00

my current obsession. 2 bottles for £1 di kedai runcit yasmin. tiap2 hari la pegi yasmin lepas ni >_<

annual general meeting dah berlangsung pg td sampai petang. tahniah semua. sesungguhnya, pemimpin-pemimpin yang dipilih dah ditetapkan pun oleh allah. dan kita hanya merancang. allah knows best every time. always.

3 weeks of easter break is coming to its end. i've got one more day left and whether or not to make full use of it, depends on me. :(

ok, i personally think kate's dress is beautiful. simple but elegant. but why was she becoming too skinny whyyyy. hehe. no comment for prince william though. oh, maybe one thing, i like his hair back then much much better D: but then again, who am i to comment? yeah, i'm one of those people who watched the online streaming of the royal wedding ^^,

she's pretty!

ok byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

the other day

2011-04-28T17:25:00.005+01:00

teringat la waktu pergi manchester hari tu. an unexpected visit, so didn't go anywhere except aljazeera utk makan nasi yg sume org ckp sedap dan murah tu. bumped into wawa there. what a coincidence.

sedaaaaap sedaaaaaap tak tipu. GBP 3.95 je! murah kan? erm kalau nampak tak sedap tu, my bad. for not being a good photographer D:

eh. jommmm sapa nk pegi manchester lg? nak masuk stadium tu. walaupun i tak tgk bola. nk jugak merasa suasana kat dalam tu. hikhik.

tak tahu la kenapa rasa mcm artis dlm gambar atas ni sbb org curi curi amek gambar :p

muka mcm nk mintak penumbuk. penumbuk ayam? hehehe

ok bye. nanti update lagi :D :D

uneasy

2011-04-28T11:17:00.004+01:00

tak boleh buat keje :( tak boleh fokus? kenapakah? tak puas hati la dengan jadual exam X(

ke sebab royal wedding yg bakal tiba? kenapa aku berdebar sekali? HA HA HA.

selamat berbahagia korang XD

p/s esok i update gambar kahwin pula. esp kate's gown :D :D

l.o.v.e.g.i.r.l.

2011-04-25T23:53:00.002+01:00

am still in newcastle upon tyne. going back to sheffield tomorrow. tak mahuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu :( sebab balik ke sheffield bermakna harus menghadapi cuti yg berbaki dengan buku. sob sob sob.

tapi, rindu jugak dekat bilik sendiri. internet di bilik sendiri lagi laju rasanya. dan banyak jugak perbezaan yg aku nampak antara sheffield dan newcastle. nanti cerita panjang sikit eh pasal ni.

tapi nak ckp. hari ni happy sebab elaun masuuuuuuk. alhamdulillah. and kali ni lebih sikit drpd biasa. elaun alat tulis brgkali. em bila travel je memang duit akan mengalir keluar mcm air. tapi itu lah hidup kan. tak boleh pikir byk sgt sebab tak boleh bwk ke mana pun duit tu. tp pikir tentang masa depan, nk kena start saving lebih byk bermula sekarang. cuti summer nanti rasa nak keje la. boleh ke?

dan hari ni jugak MV yg comel sangat dah keluar secara penuh. hikhik. maafkan daku terpaksa letak jugak dekat blog sebab i sukaaaaaaaaaaaa :D

nk poster tu jugak! pls?

:D

bila rindu

2011-04-21T21:24:00.009+01:00

rindu fatin amirah bt ahmad anuar.

"kak ira, patutnya in ke at haa?"
"emm.. UK.. in la kan, sebab contoh lain in terengganu ke"
"tu ah, aku kabo in, org tu gi tulis at gok"
"hahaha. biar lah die"

there are lots of things that i wanna share with her right now. like always. tak best ah jauh mcm ni. and plus she's not that kind of person yg bukak skype pun +_+ sekarang tahu cerita pun drpd blog die jeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. boleh tak nak stay jd kecik mcm dulu je. macam masa sekolah rendah dulu. tak payah duk jauh-jauh. main saidina sama-sama. rindurindurindu :'(

and suddenly missing everyone at home after browsing through the RAYA folder, and found this:

::alkisah mustaqim si penggemar kamera warna merah jambu::

comel sungguh! esp part die mcm geram pastu tepuk lantai pada minit ke 1:07 hahahaha!

making me tak sabar nak balik.

janji utk buat elok elok dlm exam lepas tu balik. insya allah.

jar of hearts

2011-04-18T17:24:00.004+01:00

pasang kipas dalam bilik kuat kuat sebab rasa panas sangat. tp pelik kenapa org lain ckp sejuk and masih nk pasang blower. hihihi. kita berbeza. dua tiga hari ni pun tidur tanpa duvet takde masalah.

best la spring! suka :)

terjumpa ni. setuju sangat. esok pergi cambridge! nak tengok apa yg menarik kat sana nanti.

dapat benda yang tak disangka-sangka hari ni. terima kasih atas ingatan tersebut. bermakna sekali!!

baru buka YM after two weeks tak buka. instant message bertarikh 9 april buat aku senyum sampai ke telinga. rindu! :(

and i will dream about you again tonight

2011-04-17T01:55:00.003+01:00

u are just perfect in my eyes. and because i saw u with my own eyes already, i am now craving for your presence. sampai terbawa bawa dalam mimpi!

but pls. turun sket harga tu. pls?

arizona sand.. +_+

please

2011-04-15T22:20:00.004+01:00

i ate like a pig that i hardly breathe. come to think of it, i always get plentiful food everyday, even more than enough. how heavenly it is to wake up in the morning during easter break with appealing breakfast already provided in the kitchen. the idea here is to be grateful. for every single thing. even simple things. say alhamdulillah =)

i spent a lot of money today like theres no tomorrow! komawo pekja, it has been a while since i last went shopping! i had a great day today thanks to u! people say its a good therapy. well, indeed it is! because u've got this kind of feeling, like, u're rewarding urself after some kind of achievement? :D talking to her, she got me thinking about few important things. i dont know why but i think i was able to open up more though we just knew each other for how many months? emm 6 months? perhaps it is because of our same age? come sleep over again buddy!! :)

i wonder why certain people can easily talk about others' physical appearances when they shouldn't. i mean, yes, i do that often too (and i know its bad) but... straight to their face? oh come on! its not something that they wish they have, so can you just please keep your mouth shut? or at least if you are too interested to talk about it, pls do it nicely, not joking around like its a funny thing to laugh at.

and also, everyone has different opinions and the right to shout it out. we know that. how about respecting others' opinions? respect others to earn respect. have you heard that before?

okay i think thats enough for now and i should start studying.

unspoken and unsolved

2011-04-14T07:07:00.003+01:00

i was thinking a lot last night. and everything remains unsolved. that was why i decided to sleep early. i forced myself to sleep coz i think thats the only solution. i guess that has always been my way of escaping from the reality; sleep.

nonetheless i dont think it works though, coz i woke up today with the same thing bothering my mind. i wish i wouldn't care.

i hope today would be a meaningful day, without me putting much thought on what is unnecessary.

fly me to the moon

2011-04-12T20:08:00.004+01:00

easter break has officially started and im just resting in my room the whole day. i think i really need to go out to breath some fresh air.

ticket bought already! heading somewhere in the north soon. really anticipating it coz i think i really have to go for a vacation!

i watched A Cinderella Story again today after such a long time, just because i miss those hilary duff's days :D gosh this movie was released in 2004, that was a very looooooooooooooooong time ago. even she's married already now.

i need some inspiration! seriously! i cant seem to concentrate doing my revision.

H E L P !

p.s changing to a new layout with some flowers because its spring!!!!

oh i like this

2011-04-05T20:55:00.004+01:00

life goes on

2011-04-04T03:21:00.001+01:00

.... it was heartbreaking to tell the truth.

seeing the sadness in his eyes. watching her cried (and the fact that i rarely saw her like that). i knew they were holding back their tears, fighting over their own sadness.

and I FEEL YOU GUYS TOO.

:((

download completed!

2011-03-31T20:45:00.003+01:00

thats why i'm grinning from ear to ear now :D cant u see?? heeeeeeeeeeeeee :))

anyways. alhamdulillah thank u Allah. many reasons to smile today. the presentation turned out good though theres some internal conflicts going on in the beginning. but yeah, im just gonna forget it sebab design project ni satu minggu je pun! and ITS OVER!! :)

whats left now is the report write up. which i plan to get it finished by tonight so i can just print it out tomorrow.

and yes, im feeling very grateful since the deadline for submitting the BLOOD* BIOREACTOR report is extended to next week. this is great, u know! at least they did consider our complains. heheh.

so now STOP COMPLAINING nadirah!!

looking forward utk weekend ni. walaupun tak pergi alnwick castle. theres always next time.

kan? :)

u never know until u try

2011-03-27T18:20:00.009+01:00

just got back from knitting session. okay. proven now. knitting is more than difficult than you think. well at least for me, i think it's very difficult. huaaaaa. tapi ada hati nak knit sweater pls pls sedar diri nadirah. baiklah. kalau tak sweater pun scarf pun jadi. jgn putus asa eh?

T_T

malu la tadi. maluuuuu.

hari ni rasa mcm puas hati. carboot best gila. hahah. my second carboot in sheffield. kira mcm dh ada pengalaman so pandai sket la nk tawar tawar harga. :D best tadi sebab banyak gilaaaaaa kereta. mcm mcm diorg jual. kalau ade kete confirm dh angkut semua td. tp tu la kan. tak cukup tangan. tu pun hasil mcm ni.

penghuni bilik dah bertambah ramai. haih sat gi mesti tak cukup space. hikhik. sila sila buat mcm bilik sendiri eh comel comel sekalian.

murah murah semua ni. nampak baru pulak tu kan. sape yg taknak kan T_T saya nak. jd saya beli T_T eh silap patutnya D_D

tengok la tu high school musical nye file pun nak :S zaman bile lah weyyyy :S

hah tu diaaaaaaaaaaaaa! meghah menyalaaaaaaaaaaa oih. mentang mentang adidas la kan. entah bila la nak pakai ni. tu la, waktu beli tak pikir. takpa2 buat pakai malam malam kalau stadi pi library ke. tak pun gi kedai yafai beli ayam.

special thanks to my lovely kak qilote sebab bagi sokongan padu utk beli beli ni semua. i mana suka sangat beli beli brg ni (kuikui)

ok ni kali kedua beli microphone and kali kedua kena tipu. pentipuuuuuuuu! jual benda rosak. nasib baik murah. taknak tunjuk gambar! even taknak amik pn, takdak seleraaaa! pentipuuuuu lagi sekali! muka aku ni cam mudah kene tipu agaknya. ok. sabarrrrr. ikut nasib lah tu. kan?

ok. nk tunjuk satu benda ni. sapa boleh teka memang pandai. sekali imbas mcm pizza kosong pun ade. oh oh hangusssssssssss. nice.

kena berusaha dengan lebih gigih malam ni. tak mahu tgk WGM episod akhir sebab takut nanti sedih dan terbawa bawa. eleh padahal dah tengok raw pun. huaaaaaaaaaa. :( sedih. baiklah. selamat berminggu baru kalian!

time

2011-03-27T02:55:00.003+01:00

balik rumah tadi dalam pukul 1.30 am then terkejut tengok jam laptop pukul 2.30. pastu macam "eh takkan time aku spend kat dapur td sampai 1 jam"

tengok facebook. oh. haah. british summer time (BST) dah start. so sekarang beza aku dgn malaysia dah jd 7 jam balik. ok. thats better.

tapi malam ni dah kurang satu jam :( tak sanggup :(

weekend yg mcm free. tp langsung tak produktif.

kita tgk esok mcm mana. selamat malam :)

first step

2011-03-25T15:24:00.000Z

haven't i told you how i love their comeback? YESSS CN TO THE BLUE :D

'intuition' is indeed a fresh and energetic song.

it keeps repeating in my playlist. cool.

and one thing, why is it so easy for him to lose 8 kg just like that? whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?

curiosity

2011-03-25T15:20:00.002Z

know your limits. there are some things that you shouldn't ask, so don't ask. and sometimes some matters do not need explanations. do you understand that? i do.

so now, stop being curious.

someday

2011-03-23T23:29:00.004Z

though i'm gonna have to do the bioreactor experiment tomorrow, which is claimed as very difficult by other coursemates, the thought of this made me smile in a way. YEAAAA IT'S KNITTING!! have always wanted to try this.

i wanna experience as many things as possible. so that one day i can look back and say i've at least tried those.

easter

2011-03-21T21:18:00.005Z

oral presentation and poster marks have been announced. soooo annoyed! why must he be toooooooo strict :( not that im not being grateful, but, you know, he should have helped a typical average student like me. pffftt. whatever.

anyways.

thinking of this-one-place-that-should-not-be-named-yet makes me smile.

can i go there during my easter break?

but i really have to do a steadfast revision starting from NOW.

how?

it was....

2011-03-20T16:53:00.004Z

...an awesome bath trip :) well at least to make me feel more 'alive' after the hectic weekdays.

ok these are like teaser photos. will update about it later. coz i'll be having a presentation tomorrow =S

pastel or white

2011-03-19T01:47:00.003Z

having to choose, its never easy. being me, its very difficult.

can i just close my eyes and sleep then wake up tomorrow with only an option? so that i wont have to choose.

what makes me happy today

2011-03-18T18:36:00.003Z

...is this!!

FINALLY!! so now i dont have to worry anymore =)

off to bath tomorrow. stonehenge!! :D :D

esok drawing test weiii

2011-03-17T14:16:00.002Z

i dont know whats gonna happen with my lab report mark.

if m@rt** p**t is the person who will be marking it then im dead.

nevermind. it happened already. and nothing can be changed.

and now. i really need someone to teach me this autocad thingy. please please.

anyone?

im so alone now in this big comp room.

where are the others?

a piece of my mind at 3.50 am

2011-03-17T03:36:00.002Z

okay, what am i doing now? alternately doing my lab report and blogging? 4 posts in a row in just one night. ha! something is wrong with me?! naaaah. just wanna keep myself awake. what a lame excuse.

well anyways. after submitting this lab report tomorrow i am so gonna be the happiest person on earth! BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. there's a drawing test on friday. cannot be happy =( i screwed the first test last week. seriously AUTOCAD and i just dont have that chemistry together i tell u. but i just have to accept that im gonna use lots of drawing software after this. yes. a lot more to come. oh nooooooooooooooooo!

can only be happy on friday. after the test. well thats only if i do well in the test. O' Allah, please help me. please please. only You i can rely on.

so now im putting a hold to 'dream high' series though there's only 2 more episodes left. because i have to teach myself to focus. and prioritise. and after this drama i dont want to watch any more dramas. errr ok lets see for how long that will last.

yongseo has ended filming. and it breaks my heart. my saturdays wont be the same anymore :(

but i guess theres something good behind that. which i'd rather not explain here.

it makes me think though. theres always an end to everything. no matter how u cannot accept it. because nothing lasts forever.

but the memories. will always be there.

still the same bad person

2011-03-16T23:24:00.003Z

tell u what, this has been my desktop background since last thursday, the day i did my experiment. please ignore the lack of artistic skills coz i know i'm very bad at it. but hey, see, i did put an effort. paint pun paint la kan? ok but the thing i'm saying is that, no matter how i keep reminding myself about doing my very best for this lab report, it's just the same with the previous ones. am here, struggling at the eleventh hour as usual. so what else do i need ha? what else?

gotta slap myself in the face now. wanna join? :(

ups and downs

2011-03-16T23:12:00.003Z

lately i get stressed easily even over small things. and mind you, i'm not that kind of person. or rather, i wasn't. things are different now. spring sem timetable really drives me up the wall. because of time difference, lack of skyping time with my parents. also my good friends. made me sick. and i don't like it.

and u know, when u really have to say something to them and no one is picking up their handphone and something is wrong with the landline, u feel like scolding everyone without reasons. sounds ridiculous u may say, but i'm going through this phase nowadays.

and today i spent a lot of money. now i regret.

someday you'll eventually know

2011-03-16T23:09:00.004Z

of not being able to tell the truth yet, is making me to feel very uneasy. coz they keep asking, no matter how i tried to bring up about other things. for how long will it keep going like this? well let's see.

i'm sorry, but can we let it blow just like that? like the wind?

Of Another Season

2011-03-09T21:40:00.002Z

Hari Rabu yang ordinary.

Sekarang siang dah kembali panjang. Buktinya, pagi td terjaga pukul 6.30 and tengok kat luar tingkap, cerah dah mcm 9-10 pagi!!!! Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Tuhan, semoga solat subuhku akan selamat dan terjaga selalu. Kena bangun awal! Dan tak boleh cakap je, kena buat!

Nak jadi lebih baik!

;(

go gu ma

2011-03-04T01:29:00.001Z

aaa kenapa comel sangat?! saturday pali pali :D

soal hati

2011-03-02T21:30:00.001Z

kadang kadang rasa susahnya nak menjaga hati sendiri.

suatu ketika, cuba melarikan diri. namun terserempak juga.

jadi bagaimana?

used to it.

2011-02-28T23:16:00.004Z

even if one keeps smiling like nothing happens, it doesn't mean that she's happy.
and even if she looks worried it doesn't mean that she's sad.

this is driving me insane. seriously i don't know what to say. i'm not sure what i'm feeling.

but i believe that, with hope anything is possible.

butterflies

2011-02-21T21:39:00.005Z

dengarnya ramai sangat org dapat 1st class utk exam first sem baru ni. aaaaaaaa stress! nk tau ke tak nak tau? ke tak nak amik tau? tp akan tau jugak nanti.

so yeah, im just gonna prepare myself.

teringat dulu dulu waktu pmr ke spm ntah time baik lagi dengan sorang ni, die ckp,

"just do your best, pray hard, tawakal and accept everything with a smile"

sounds simple. sume org pun bole ckp mcm tu. tapi bila die yg cakap, kesan die mcm... deep. heheh mengada la nadirah!

okay.

sooooooooo macamana result diriku agaknya nanti? dhla tak studyholic. takut je takut je. haih.

cuaaaaakkk T_T

picture taken right after last paper (chemistry) on 2/2/11 with gayathri and audrey.

dugeun dugeun!!!

Sunyi

2011-02-21T19:35:00.003Z

A quite packed schedule today. From 10 am until 4 pm. Yes, it might not be that packed compared to other courses but, still. Hmm. Went to the library to return a book. For the first time of my being here in Sheffield, had to queue in a quite long line. Two times.

Then I walked home alone. It was very cold today. An unusual cold. Wondering, isn't it spring already? And why does it feel like the beginning of winter?

Opened the door. Entered the house. Went upstairs into the room. Switched on the blower immediately. Then only I felt better.

Turned on the laptop. Facebook. One new message.

Got a message from her.

And slowly tears were falling down on my cheek.

Ya Allah, sangat rindukan dia. Jadikanlah aku seorang hamba yg redha dgn ketentuanMu Ya Allah.

Utk dikau di sana, moga kita bertemu lagi nanti...

Still Macam Dulu

2011-02-17T05:46:00.001Z

Bangun pukul lima pagi utk siapkan lab report, rasa mcm those days dekat KMB!

Terukkkkk!

Taknak buat mcm ni dah!!

Marah dgn diri sendiri!

Dugeun Dugeun

2011-02-02T10:53:00.002Z

Last paper.

In another 2 hours time.

Tak sabaaaaaaaar sebab banyak benda nk buat lepas habis je exam ni!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA harap-harap boleh jwb!

Amin, amin, amin.

Under My Umbrella

2011-01-30T02:14:00.001Z

Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend

Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella

:)

a friend in need

2011-01-29T01:45:00.004Z

Someone made me feel so touched today!

You know, a simple "I know u can do it" message can really inspire me. And the fact that it's from a person I barely talk to before, it feels so warm. Like, the most unconnected person to you can be very influential to you at times. :)

Kita still ada masa selagi kita belum pegang exam paper tu

Aaaaa it really has given an impact to me. Thank you :)

of yesterday =)

2011-01-28T02:07:00.002Z

semalam birthday kak long kiteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! =P

hehe happy birthday kaklom~!

tak aci betul, humph!!! semalam telefon rumah tp takde org angkat, so try reach handphone bonda, rupanya semua baru balik makan kat luar. memang tak aci sungguhhhhhhhhhhhhh! dulu pun kalau ade cam makan-makan besar gtu pn aku salu je miss sebab jarang balik masa kat kmb! memang tak aci.

pastu kan, tak cukup dgn tu, baru-baru ni masa tengah skype pun diorg tengah makan pizza hut dgn gembiranya dekat rumah kaklong. hari tu tunjuk makan satay la. kakna bukan main seronok buat aku jeles. aaaaaaa! memang la korang, memang laaaa! kadang-kadang makan keropok pn nk tunjuk! nasib baik keropok shipping dh sampai! hehehe. rasa mcm homey gile makan keropok goreng walaupun terpaksa cicah dengan sos cili thai kat sini je. ok la tu kan?

hehe. to kaklong, glad that u received the card already, walaupun sehari awal. tunggu la i bwk balik bag and kasut-kasut segala, kalau ada la ek.. hahahaha!!!

i wish u happiness for the coming years. God bless you =)

kahkahkah. gambar ni. yg kat tengah tengah tu adalah baby yg berusia 4 bulan lebih ok. setiap kali tgk gmbr ni mesti rasa nk gelak sebab rasa qaisara mcm diabaikan je bile sume org sibuk bergambar. ngeeee =D

rayarayaraya lovelovelove~

AND yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, pls hug these two makhluk kecil for me!!!

SEE! MUSTAQIM HAS BECOME SOOOOO BROTHERLY SURPRISINGLY!! HEHEHEH. AND QAISARA TOO, HAS GROWN UP SO MUCH!

RINDUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

please please

2011-01-27T01:30:00.003Z

Aaaaaa.. CPE 1004 Exam in another few hours.

Of Physics, Biology and Physical Chemistry.

I should be sleeping right now but I'm just so scared.

I know I didn't prepare well..

=(

Dear God, please please please.

A pass at least.

So scared =(

I'm gonna do it..

Help me Ya Allah...

Buat Aku Tersenyum

2011-01-23T15:18:00.002Z

Sangat gembira hari ini!

Alhamdulillah, terima kasih Tuhan kerana menghantar orang-orang yg baik utk membantu saya!

Saya akan gunakan peluang yg diberi sebaiknya!

Nak senyum sepanjang hariiiii =)

Good Luck

2011-01-23T13:24:00.001Z

Sebenarnya dah lama nak upload gambar kek yg Kak Qilot buat ni! Menarik kan? Hehe jom semua kita buat the best utk exam!

AAAAAAAAAAAAA. Baru-baru ni hati sgt tersentuh bila baca entry ini!! Kak Nina we miss you. A LOT! Betul la kan, kdg2, org yg kite baru je kenal boleh jd sangat rapat dgn kita. Just so close. Indahnya perasaan tu.

Kak Nina!!! I miss you!!!! We all miss you! Ingat tak waktu kita makan 3 org je dengan Azah tu, masa Azah masak tomyam tu? Ingat kan? Hehe kelakar!

Dalam byk byk gambar, yg last paaaaaling best memori nye kan kan? =) *hugs*

Nak Balik Malaysia Sekarang Jugak!

2011-01-19T15:39:00.002Z

Aku ingat lagi mcm mana serabut dan kalutnya keadaan masa Sem 4 yang lalu di KMB, di mana segala coursework sedang gigih disiapkan then tiba-tiba charger laptop bermasalah. Ingat lagi. Ya, masih ada entry tersebut di sini.

Dan sekarang. For the second time. And the feeling is pretty much the same.

Bayangkan duduk dalam bilik sorang-sorang lepas tu takde laptop. Handphone pun handphone cikai je tak boleh nk online guna handphone. Lepas tu nk tgk notes utk revise for exam pn susah. Bayangkan bayangkan.

And so.. This is my life.

Pathetic T_T

Jom Jadi Sihat

2011-01-14T17:19:00.003Z

Sempena 2011 ni, aku berazam utk mengamalkan gaya hidup yg lebih sihat! Hehe, bagaimana? Jeng jeng jenggggggggggg!

Antara langkah awal yg boleh dilakukan adalah minum air banyak banyak! Nak capai 4 liter air dalam satu hari! Oh, air manis tak aci ek. Air gas pun tak aci. Dutch lady chocolate ke milkshake ke lagi lah tak aci T_____T Air putih je ye. Air kosong! Hmm

Tapi tu lah kan, sebelum-sebelum ni pun agaknya air kosong tak sampai satu gelas pun aku minum dalam sehari. Ya, aku baru perasan tentang mende ni. Kalau minum air mesti nk manis manis je. So memang impossible lah kan nk terus capai 4 liter. So kita buat sikit-sikit dulu ye. Mungkin boleh mula dengan 1 liter? Kemudian 1.5 liter? Kemudian 2 liter, sampai lah 4 liter.

Jom kawan-kawan kita sama-sama jadi sihat! THE MORE YOU DRINK THE MORE YOU SHRINK!

Hahhhhhh tu dia siap keluar motto lagik :D

2011-01-14T15:35:00.000Z

The awaited song is finally released! I like it!

And happy first anniversary CN Blue!!!

Jonghyun-ah~~~

:D

2011-01-10T21:29:00.004Z

Aaaaaaaaaa macam mana ni. Betul lah kan org ckp bila tiba musim exam ni, apatah lg tgh musim sejuk sekarang, mulut ni asyik rasa nak makaaaan je. Or rather, asyik nk mengunyah jeee. Padahal baru dinner tadi and rasa kenyang sungguh, tp bila nk start belajar je, rasa kenyang tadi macam hilang! Tp bukan lapar sangat pn cuma rasa nk mengunyah sesuatu! Semua orang memang mcm ni ke? Ke aku je? =__=

Oklah back to L'Hopital's Rule. Susahnya kepala nak digest benda ni :(

Y, Why

2011-01-07T01:41:00.002Z

Been falling in love these few days. Kekeke.

What should I do? :P

For all of my friends out there,

Another Day Has Passed

2011-01-02T17:31:00.002Z

Apa yg aku dh buat hari ni? AAAAAAAAAAAAA.

Tp sgt seronok Skype dengan org yg jauh. Thanks babe :)

And now...